NotNaNoWriMo

I don’t do a great job with goals, like NaNoWriMo offers.

My copy of Scrivener has a goal-setting feature that allows you to set the number of words you want to write in a session.  It doesn’t help me and usually frustrates me, because I keep looking at the counter rather than letting the story and words come out.

I have to admit, though, that my writing has been wandering and isn’t focused on a specific outcome.  The problem is that I want to get something published and writing little bits or short doesn’t get me closer to that.

In order to find a middle ground, I’m going to gather up the stuff I’ve written and start a literotica page.  It’s not the same as writing to get published but it does keep me focused on writing for an audience.  I think a reasonable goal is to get the page created and post a first story before next week starts.  When I do, I’ll post a link here for all….zero…readers of this blog.  :)

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For the articles!

I’ve been widening my circle of places I look for writers discussing erotica.

It is really easy to find places to read it, as you probably know.  It’s not easy to find places where writers are talking about the craft without some other ulterior motive interfering with things.

For example, manymanymanymany blogs about writing erotica are really there to sell the authors works…which is fine but the advice tends to be very tepid.  Manymanymanymany others are essentially billboards for “publishing services” or porn sites and so on.

I’m finding some nice groups on sites that cater to some other sexual interest (tattooed women; fetishes; etc) but include discussion boards where people can talk without having to “pay for the hosting costs” or whatever.

What’s funny is that, for the first time in my life, I can honestly say “I’m looking at this for the articles!”  :)

When I say that out loud, it’s laughable.

But really!  It’s true!

Or…at least it’s true that I start with the articles but I’m happy to stray past the photos of elaborate (hawt) rope bondage, intricate tattoos, and so on.  ;)

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Pizza Delivery!

I think my biggest struggle as I’m working on the new short story is creating a work that flows smoothly from start to finish.

Making the storyline and the erotic content flow naturally together is a challenge. Too many times, I go back to what I wrote and see jarring transitions between sections. They almost feel like the absurd porn cliches (although they aren’t) where some ordinary situation suddenly turns sexual.

I’m getting better at it, but it’s a difficult task…or, more hopefully phrased, it’s a difficult skill to learn.

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I am Charlotte Simmons

I read most of I Am Charlotte Simmons by Tom Wolfe over the weekend. I have read plenty of his stuff, but didn’t read this until now because of the lukewarm reviews it received when released.

It’s good writing and there are many things I admire about it. Wolfe’s observations on human nature, seen through the lens of college life, are interesting an kept me reading. The plot, on the other hand, was a bit of a drag.

The “tension” between the opportunities the students are presented and their general inexperience and confusion about how life works just doesn’t build to a point where I really feel compelled to finish the book. A side-plot about a political scandal lacked the energy to make me care what happened at the end. So, I’m putting it down after reading about 400 of the 600+ pages and don’t feel too badly about the fact.

But to be honest, I’ll probably pick it up from time to time and read a little, when I feel like something insightful yet without feeling a burden to read several hundred pages to “understand” it all. I have a small pile of books in this category: works that do something quite brilliantly, even if the work as a whole is a little flawed.

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Erotica as revolution

As I was thinking about yesterday’s post about inspiration, a little voice in the back of my head told me to go pull Foucault’s “History of Sexuality” off the shelf.

There, in the very first pages, is this quote which I find reassuring as I start to focus and write the new story I want to tell:

What sustains our eagerness to speak of sex in terms of repression is doubtless this opportunity to speak out against the power that be, to utter truths and promise bliss, to link together enlightenment, liberation and manifold pleasures; to pronounce a discourse to change the laws, and the longing for the garden of earthly delights.  This is perhaps what also explains the market value attributed not only to what is said about sexual repression, but also to the mere fact of lending an ear to those who would eliminate the effects of repression.  Ours is, after all, the only civilization in which officials are paid to listen to all and sundry impart the secrets of their sex: as if the urge to talk about it, and the interest one hopes to arouse by doing so, hav far surpassed the possibilities of being heard, so that some individuals have even offered their ears for hire.

(Introduction, History of Sexuality Volume 1, p 7)

Thus, whatever I write needs to be more than just a work trading on the tension that repression causes.  Eventually, it should be something that is seen as commonplace and the situations and people it describes be seen as normal.

That would be revolutionary.

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Inspiration

I’m finding inspiration in an unusual place: politics.

With the American presidential race ramping up, it’s impossible to miss the social battles the rich people are fighting “on our behalf” via political commercials and editorials in the papers.  In general, the struggle in the sexually related realms is between a conservative story that describes “traditional family relationships” against…well….something else that’s generally not well-defined.

It’s this “something else” that I find problematic.  It’s easiest to embrace an idea if we can imagine how it would actually take shape in real life.  The gay couples I know who have children show me how these arrangement take shape and the children are cared for in ways that are equally loving and supportive as in the traditional models.  But these stories aren’t widely told and also suffer from attacks via other “traditional stories” that homophobes tell about how gays are “recruiting” by adopting children they intend to “corrupt” and so on.

In this light: I’ve been working on a two new ideas as I thought about how what I write could also be a little revolutionary.  (i.e How can I write stories that are more than spank material?)

I’m finding inspiration in this line of thought and have several characters and plots now that I’ve sketched out, each telling a “story” that provides an alternative to that traditional family relationship.

While I know that what I’m writing is just a story, I also know that what I write is based upon experiences I’ve had or upon those of people I personally know and trust.  I hope that as I write, I’m doing something more than just “earning a check for writing a naughty story” and that I may find a way to express something more complex in the process.

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New Writing Project

Rejection is no fun.

I struggled with the story that was rejected for a few weeks.  I didn’t work very hard at it, mainly because I started a new job.

Still, I stared at the reject and tried to think of ways to rebuild it.

I finally gave up and decided to throw it out.

I started a new project instead.  A fresh sheet of paper is letting me try some things that would have been hard or impossible to do with the reject story.

It’s nice.  A new job and a new story.  Fresh starts.  :)

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Sartre, Camus and…Wanda

I was reading a review for a new book about Sartre, Camus and their love triangle with a woman named Wanda.  From the review:

Back in occupied Paris, Sartre also gave her a small part in his play The Flies (1943). She performed well enough for her to be offered a part in No Exit (1944). Which is where it all started to go wrong. Because of Camus. The smooth matinee idol. Right under Sartre’s nose. And Sartre had recklessly paired them in the same room together. And got them talking about how good it would be to have sex if not for the fact that they were already dead. Such was the premise of the play. All the characters – one man and two women – are in hell and “hell is other people”

Now that?  That’s a great story, though it has a real tragic element to it.

If nothing else, it is inspiration to write one with the same dynamic.

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And there was no ‘erotic school of writing’ to be found.

As I was tooling around the internet, I found this copy of a letter that Kurt Vonnegut wrote.  In a nutshell, Vonnegut discusses an idea that says you cannot be a writer (or artist of any kind) in a vacuum.  In every situation, he says, “It isn’t a question of finding a Messiah, but of a group’s creating one—and it’s hard work, and takes a while.”

A professor and teacher he knew, named Slotkin, described how an artistic community (or “school”) is necessary for greatness:

The school gives a man, Slotkin said, the fantastic amount of guts it takes to add to culture. It gives him morale, esprit de corps, the resources of many brains, and—maybe most important—one-sidedness with assurance. (My reporting what Slotkin said four years ago is pretty subjective—so let’s say Vonnegut, a Slotkin derivative, is saying this.) About this one-sidedness: I’m convinced that no one can amount to a damn in the arts if he becomes sweetly reasonable, seeing all sides of a picture, forgiving all sins.

The problem, according to Vonnegut, is that he can’t find a school.  He writes for his agents and such.  He writes to make money, even if that means being commercial rather than creative.  What is his alternative if he has no school to help him pursue greatness?

The obvious alternative is, of course, something to please the Atlantic,Harpers, or the New Yorker. To do this would be to turn out something after the fashion of somebody-or-other, and I might be able to do it. I say might. It amounts to signing on with any of a dozen schools born ten, twenty, thirty years ago. The kicks are based largely on having passed off a creditable counterfeit. And, of course, if you appear in theAtlantic or Harpers or the New Yorker, by God you must be a writer, because everybody says so. This is poor competition for the fat checks from the slicks. For want of anything more tempting, I’ll stick with money.

I do not compare myself to Vonnegut, because I am not an egotistical fool. However, I understand his dilemma. While I’m  not writing for the slicks, I’m writing with the intention of selling to the e-book erotica publishers that pay the highest rates.  Why?

As I become more serious about writing and due to the heavy erotic element I find fascinating (not just titillating, mind you!), I can’t find a group of people who seem to be doing anything interesting with erotica.

Oh sure. There are discussions for each sub-genres within the field…but each of the sub-genres feel to be copy-and-replace variations and not real stylistic alternatives.  Cut “regency” and paste “werewolves”.  Cut “werewolves” and paste “corporate raiders”.  While you are at it, pick a topping or two: bdsm, straight/gay, romantic, married only, etc.  Finally, pick a size: flash fiction shorts, novellas, series, etc.

There are also a bazillion erotic writing forums, and most of them are filled with discussions about how much you should charge for an e-book or how much money you “should” be making.

So: Lots of discussion on how to churn out something fleshy and sexy but little discussion about pushing the boundaries of erotica…

What I can’t find is a group of writers discussing erotica that makes me sit up and be interested (no pun intended).  Erotica has one purpose: to arouse the sexual senses of the reader.  But that purpose can also be directed to further ends, not just simple titillation.  When I think of Georges Bataille’s Story of the Eye, I think of a book that is erotic and shocking and thought provoking all at once.

Where are the people writing today’s version of Bataille’s book?

Maybe it’s a problem rooted within internet discussion?  Serious and detailed discussion is nearly impossible using software that encourages browsing, skimming, and multitasking by flipping between tabs.  And even if you start to generate a serious discussion, it’s difficult to manage given that a single essay can receive dozens of replies…and how can you really answer or engage them all?

And if you aren’t finding people discussing the challenges writing erotica on the internet, where else do you look for them?!?

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Too much. Not enough.

I submitted my first story to a publisher a few weeks ago.

I got lucky.  Sorta.

I was rejected…but was encouraged to make some changes and resubmit.

Some of the suggestions are easy to follow.  By removing overused words, adjusting scenes so that they less wordy and less detailed…more is left to the imagination.  Got it.

While it is taking time to review the story with each suggestion in mind, it’s not particularly difficult. I feel like I’m improving my writing skill as I review the pages with a newly critical eye.

…That’s the “too much” suggestion.

The other suggestion is more difficult: “this story is too short, compared to what we normally publish.”

Taken together, these show that the little stories I wrote for myself in the past were perfect for me.  However, to get something more commercial finished, I have some learning and practicing to do before I am comfortable with the tone, voice and rhythm that’s needed.

 

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